wow, three posts in one day, ms rashidah you’re on a roll.
not much of a roll when the first post is about boredom, the second post is about the past and the third(now) is about current frustrations.
i love the boy, i really do, and i believe that all roads in life will lead to one path, which is the path of the life you were really meant to walk on. and i believe that amidst all the dirt roads and back alleys that i have walked on, the clearing on part of my journey has begun to show up and cleared and has shown itself to me. however this part of my journey is very prone to climate changes.
yeah, i’m using alot of big words and i’m hiding behind alot of terminology (there’s a word for it here but i forgot), but i’m feeling very very frustrated.
i seriously do want to rant but at the same time i’m calming myself down. i do not want to be very impulsive and say things that i only mean now at this point of time but not mean it later because then i have a lot of apologising to do and i do not wish to apologise. BUT i do want to say this.
when it comes to feelings, is it wrong for a woman to expect a lot? is it wrong for a woman to want certain things, to expect certain things from her man? is it wrong for a woman to get affection, to ask for affection? is it right for a woman to actually “beg” for lack of terms, for affection? why cant the woman be the one receiving calls and smses and not be the one always initiating the calls and smses? trivial i know, but these are the things that make me tick. is it wrong for a woman to want the spark to still be there, to work on making the spark alive, and why cant the man try and keep the spark alive? granted, most men are not romantic, granted that some men cant express themselves, but HELLOOO, you could try, no? i want romance like Dr Huxtable and Mrs Huxtable, i want romance like pretty woman, i want a love life, and not just a plain boring relationship. A relationship is not just about being commited and faithful to one another, its also about keeping the romance alive, and i am not just talking about making love(sex), i am talking about date nights, conversations, walks on the beaches.
seriously, i wish my love life is like a 1960s black and white movie, like singing in the rain, like breakfast at tiffanys.. where men wore tuxedos to everything, and tip their hats in woman presence, and stand up when a woman enters the room and only be seated when the woman is seated.
grrr… other than that, yes, i still love my man. but he is driving me crazy with his bo chapness. Too bo chap is no good.
