you know, this blog has been peppered all over with tales and anecdotes about the boy.. and it seems that i have forgotten about the girl.
a long time a go, probably back in 2004, i met this very petite and small, but feisty girl called Nor Arziawati. the first time i saw her she was wearing this sleeveless tee with this uber-short skirt that had a skulls and bones motif all over it. she had long hair, and immediately i labeled her as a punk-rocker wannabe and a super super super huge Minah. the way she speaks, BLEURGH turn off. and what’s more, i found out that she had a boyfriend who rides, and again, that MINAH label stuck. (in my defense, i was young and none the wiser, and i was pretty judgemental. hey! i was called worse okay. i’ve been a stuck up, i’ve been a proud, ive been an ugly but step hot, i’ve been worse. but i accept. mainly because of the big-ness of my heart… that plus i dont really care what people think.) now, the reason i usually stick around her was because her coursemate was my friend, and in my course at that point of time, we were seriously lacking in malay girls who i could really bond with. so we ended going to lectures together, we ate together… bla bla bla. of course she wasnt around in school much, so i was pretty alright with that. eventually, i picked up smoking again, and since ms arzia smoked, we buddied up, and went smoking together. usually i just bumped from her. eventually, i got into some mischief with some man, and barely attended school, and there came an intervention with my friends. i still remember, Laurie, Wati, Sheena and Aishah sitting down at mcdonalds telling me to stop whatever nonsense i was doing and concentrate in school or they will personally make sure that i will suffer tremendously. and there also came the time where i was super bored, and seeing that i was lacking in friends, i called wati up to hang out, and then the lepak sessions multiplied, until i got to know her better. however, if you were to ask me to pinpoin the exact date and the exact year we bonded, i dunno. all i remember was eventually we hung out alot, and she was there for me practically almost all the time. i remember when i had a huge bad break up, she would entertain my needs to hang out and we would go as far as east coast to just sit around and drink.. or when i was chasing another boy, we would go all the way to simpang bedok in the middle of the night despite being broke just so i could see that boy which eventually i didnt get to see. i also remember that in one of the drunken nights that we had, we were approached by two guys, and we shook hands and made a pact, if one leaves, the other will leave despite having fun. HEH. we had a lot of crazy fun times together. and yet, we share much deeper moments. she has been there when i need her, she has been there when i thought i didnt need her, she always backed me up, she is my wing woman, and for that i am grateful.
you know, alot of craziness has happened lately, and you had your ups and your downs. i’m afraid i havent been much of a friend lately, and for that i apologise. sometimes i impose my beliefs on you, most of the times i impose my dreams on you, without caring whether it would be suitable for you or not. i apologise. sincerely. it is not my choice, it is yours. at the moment i understand that you wish to follow your heart, though at times your head says otherwise. as your friend, as your best friend my only say in that matter is just to wish you all the happiness that i can give, because you deserve it. you deserve the best. you deserve the very best. and if you feel that what you have is the best, then it is. just remember though, boyfriends and dates and anybody else aside, you still have me, no matter what, like i have you. i love you.
