Of late, i am beginning to feel this void in me. This need to be fulfilled, to accomplish something in life, this desire to achieve the things that would be satisfying has not been filled. I feel empty, i need to feel gratified but i am not. Day in, day out is the same thing all over again.
Dont get me wrong, i enjoy my current line of work. Fnb is something that i am good at, fnb is something i excel in and one line of expertise in which i am familiar with. Yes, i enjoy serving people, yes it makes me happy to see my guests leaving with a huge smile on their faces but all that satisfy me on an emotional level. It doesnt gratify my intellectual needs. I need something that makes use of my brains and my capabilities. I need something that i would be trulu happy in and come on lets face it, i am lacking in energy, i am getting older and fnb is something that require a whole load of energy, especially in night life. Looking at how successful my friends all are, i cant help but envy them. I need to feel proud of my work.
Oh dear, i am a mess arent i?
